ok i have been wanting to talk abt this for sometime already.
but i hope u understand.
first.
i nvr expected ur new piece of heaven to draw such a clear line between my side and your side.
i was exhilarated and joyous when i heard abt the good news from ur side because,
you found a place u belong to after u guys left us.
and i tot both side was one.
like...
a junior senior team thingy.
whr we could always visit each other.
and after we are skilled and leave the junior team.
we could go str8 to the senior team
but that is apparently very not the case.
done.
second,
i know as being one of the better batches.
u guys expect a certain standard from us.
especially when you guys got sth with us.
and expect us to uphold the standard when u guys look at us again,
but have u ever wondered how long we were thrown hanging?
without knowing what will happen to us?
the group of us frantically looking for somebody daring enough to take us up?
and we coming tgt and planning how trainings are to be like?
and the young ones came right into our faces before we could finish handling the newly stepped up "old" ones.
yes.
we did a bad job.
the recorders already did their slashing at us.
but as much as im infuriated by their comments.
when i saw the other.
i was disappointed.
ive ever heard of why the..rockband batch was so sad.
because their legendary seniors expected them to uphold something.
win something back.
and wasnt happy that the rockband batch couldnt get anything back.
so...why is history repeating?
well perhaps on a smaller scale.
i guess this is what time does to all of us.
im trying to continue this piece of heaven u guys worked for and left to us.
we're all trying.
but i guess we or maybe ME.
was looking forward to how u guys encouraged us last time.
instead of such disheartening comments.
i guess wad some says are right.
you'll die if you continue living to look at the past.
i'll look at my future.
we're all looking at each other from different places now.
how could we ever look at the same direction already?
its just a bad day.
done.
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