i realised.
i haven been down that road alone for a long long time alr.
unknowingly.
even after reaching the bus stop.
i continued walking..
everything felt the same.
everything smell the same.
everything felt like yesterday.
it felt like the night i walked down this road.
wanting to sms you.
but i couldnt,
cos you said ur godsis wouldnt like it.
it felt like the night i hoped you know how much you are impt to me.
but you wouldnt get it.
it felt like the night,
i wished i'd know what you would wan me to do to make u stay.
i felt like shit walking down there alone.
like ghouls of the past not wanting to let me go.
like a old scar burning.
the high beams of the cars were like flash lights shining in my face.
blinding me.
putting flashbacks in my mind.
i continued walking.
i tot back of the past.
im not good looking.
im not rich.
im not talented.
but i gave all i could.
i remember how i loved to hold you in a busy mrt.
cos that made me feel safe as long as u are with me.
i remembered how i'd wake up and give u wake up calls.
and send u to paya lebar.
cos i didnt have a car.
and thats the best i could do.
i remember how i loved to eat at wisma with u.
remembering what u liked to eat and dirnk there.
i remembered how i loved to remember every single dream u had.
cos i want to be part of it.
i remembered how i'd say ill play our song, "from this moment"
at our wedding.
i remembered how we had our first lunch at d'ship
i also remembered
how much i loved you.
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so short.
why does it burn so deep?
becos age dont mean the distance.
time dont mean the difference.
its how hearts linked up with each other.
and i guess i got disconnected from yours.
till you've lost,
you'll nv know pain.
天也变了
草也长了
我们都长大了
就像我们从前常常走的路一样
现在的你和我
都变了。
